it;s ok
I’m ok. That’s how we are supposed to respond, right?
There are some people in life that are the bravest and strongest people you will ever meet. You don’t see them go up and down. They’re not emotional. Their faith is bigger than every mountain…I am not that person.
And I have learned. It’s OK to not be OK.
Actually, if you can’t admit that when you are struggling, you will continue to struggle. It is only when we are honest and truthful that we are set free.
Then you will experience for yourselves the truth, and the truth will free you. “John 8:32.
It has to be experienced. You must feel it, walk through it and that is when you will find freedom.

We live in a world that is obsessed with filters, perfectionism and keeping up with the Jones’. We strive to make our lives look so wonderful that no one knows who we really are, what we’re going through or how we truly feel. But I don’t want to be a part of a façade. I want to live an authentic life. A truthful life.
I think that means something different to everyone.
For me it means excepting who I am and owning my story. It means that I am brave enough to be honest about my flaws, scars and decide that I am worthy regardless of my past.

This last year has been the hardest of my life. In a million years, I never would have imagined that I would be a single mom and starting over at age 30. I didn’t see divorce in my cards or infidelity in my relationship, but it happened anyways. You don’t plan for pain to happen. It just happens. But what you do with that pain is a choice. A choice that you must make every single day for yourself and for your family.
So, I choose to love and be loved. I choose to be an amazing mother that raises her little girl in a stable home. I choose to honor God with my life, actions and reactions. I choose to see my scars as something beautiful, rather than something that I must hide. I choose to be free and walk in truth.
If you are struggling with the reality that you find yourself in, remember that you are worthy, loved and wonderful. Scars do not mean that you are defective. Scars symbolize that you are a survivor and that you are a testimony to what you have been through, but are no longer in.
P.S. I’m ok, now.

“You should know you’re beautiful just the way you are
And you don’t have to change a thing, the world could change its heart”
Scars To Your Beautiful

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